YOU SAY I KILLED YOU

leo ⋆ 21+ ⋆ she&her

fond of good men & terrible women & unapologetic villains. also fond of cyclical tragedy & redemption arcs, as unlikely as they might be. in love with the idea of love ( with love as a little violence ) ! i'm holding out my hands for your characters ♡

hauntings:ㅤ

can be found primarily at fight clubs & venues; most of my characters are on mateus, but i'm more than happy to server hop around !send me a /tell if you see me; i won't bite.

ㅤcurrently active:ㅤ

twitter.
discord by request.prefer in-game roleplay to discord, if only because i've got the attention span of a mayfly.

basic rules of roleplay and etiquette apply ! no minors, please ♡ muses and mun are all 21+.
my characters operate on ptk; otherwise, you've got blanket permissions to harm them !
ooc =/= ic; the thoughts and actions of my character do not correspond to my own beliefs !
the 'current main' tag on my muses only means that i'm more likely to show up in the open world ( venues, ul'dah, etc. ) on them ! i will always have plenty of muse for all of my ocs.

tropes i love:a good cause, one that's worth dying for ( or living for, either one ); partners in crime + hand in unloveable hand; what is grief, if not love persevering; yearning + your name in my mouth as a wound; dysfunctional, intense relationships; faith & faith & faith bleeding into other; hands were meant to hold other hands; violence & tenderness as the same; glutted on blood & glory; aching, endless hunger.

i prefer in-game roleplay for short bursts ( under or around 4 hours ) and discord for continuation or longer interactions ! sometimes i will go mia for periods of time, due to the nature of my rl & work, but i will always be interested in our ocs & in writing !

zero
appears mid-twenties
she&her
sky pirate

❝ to be lit up from within, vein by vein, to be the sun.

current main

reu e'lias
27
he&him
spymaster

❝ your lies are sticky, sickly sweet saccharine: golden honey fracturing light and i drink every drop.

bishop
38
he&him
executioner

❝ I COULD BE A WOLF FOR YOU. I COULD PUT MY TEETH ON YOUR THROAT. I COULD GROWL. I COULD EAT YOU WHOLE.

current main

saint
unknown
they&she&he
priest

❝ even if there were gods / what could they do about love? / so show me your heart, gore and all.

enma
appears late twenties
she&her
director of war

❝ in the slow cut of first sun my name is a wasp's nest, my endangered bones are sweet; a pill under god’s tongue.

karakurenai
appears early thirties
he&him
rabid dog

❝ there's a hunger in me, something vicious. a thirst to be celestial, godly, divine—

current main

edel
appears mid-twenties
he&him
hunting hound

ㅤ❝ i crushed a monarch mid flight / just to know how it felt / to have something change / in my hands.

lark
appears mid-twenties
he&him
bookkeeper

❝ cut me open and the light streams out. stitch me up and the light keeps streaming out between the stitches.

issk'ir delacroix
appears early thirties
he&him
remnant memory

❝ a gentleness that comes, not from the absence of violence, but despite the abundance of it.

noël delacroix
24
he&him
proxy heir

❝ I want you to hold the knife, but I don’t know what I want you to do: plunge or mercy.

current main

august
28
he&him
mania

❝ bite patterns ain't that accurate for legal evidence but / i'm tellin' you that the skin / don't forget.

Plus
Plus

hart
259
she&her
wound

❝ as wound / as womb / as monster.

ㅤnameㅤㅤ issk'ir delacroix.
ㅤaliasㅤㅤ kir; croix.
ㅤageㅤㅤ appears early thirties.
ㅤpronounsㅤㅤ he&him.
ㅤraceㅤㅤ mutt; viera + elezen.
ㅤsexualityㅤㅤ pansexual.
ㅤoccupationㅤㅤ ( knight ) bounty hunter.

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LIKES
the sun's rays slicing through clouds: godrays that stretch from the heavens to the bottom of the river; the warmth of fingertips drawn against gnarled oak; the endless blue of the sky and sea and horizon; wild joy and laughter at the apex of a fall.

DISLIKES
the suffocating darkness; being cornered into a path with no light in sight; tied down—to people, to concepts, to a place; the sharp-cold shiver of ice dropped down his collar; hands pressed against the nape of his neck.

caught in slivers; everlasting grief & an ardent belief in the way godrays settle against the riverbed. a snapshot of prayer. duty above all; warm hands, warmer heart. slender fingers knotting up a tangled web of memories; red lips, redder thoughts. brilliant & dazzling—all to fill up the void where his memories should be. to chase away the dark.wants to be ( good. the light of the sun through scattered clouds. the summer breeze streaming through windswept hair. oriole-song and gnarled oak beneath fingertips— ) something more than just a shadow. something more than just flickers and snapshots of words and phrases and ( feelings. )

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ㅤnameㅤㅤ noël delacroix.
ㅤaliasㅤㅤ vireo.
ㅤageㅤㅤ 24.
ㅤpronounsㅤㅤ he&him.
ㅤraceㅤㅤ elezen.
ㅤsexualityㅤㅤ greysexual.
ㅤoccupationㅤㅤ ( proxy ) heir.

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golden, sunlit hair & a soft, tender smile. too-blue eyes underneath heavy lashes—prone to reddening corners & fleeting tears. slightly wavy locks that gently curl around his ears & forehead—a beauty mark underneath the corner of his rose-red mouth.a crimson tattoo ( in the shape of an abstract sun ) at the nape of his neck, with strange symbols etched into his skin. lean & lithe; slender shoulders & pale throat.faithful & faithless; devout in his belief that all things stem from love, medicine and malady both. genuine, despite everything—has the power to remain so.( almost gentle. almost happy. almost, almost, almost. )

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ㅤnameㅤㅤ zero.
ㅤaliasㅤㅤ captain; bakachou.
ㅤageㅤㅤ appears mid-twenties.
ㅤpronounsㅤㅤ she&her.
ㅤraceㅤㅤ seeker; miqo'te.
ㅤsexualityㅤㅤ bisexual.
ㅤoccupationㅤㅤ captain of the dreadwyrm.

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LIKES
the touch of fingertips to head & the warmth of sunlight crossing the deck; laughter in the early morning; pressing her palm against the railing of the ship & singing to livingwood; witch-weather: flying through levinlight & torrential rain.

DISLIKES
the wet goop of cracked eggs thrown at her forehead; the feverish desperation of being cornered in a bad situation; trembling fingers & the icy chill of despair; losing & the fear of never being found; fingertips slipping through fingertips.

captain of the dreadwyrm, a ship that found new life in its current crew— crazy for the unbreakable dawn. she holds the ship & her crew in the softest parts of her heart, echo-tied & filled with the tender violence of love.loves to chase the setting sun & loves the way hands were made to hold other hands. filled with the wanderlust most known to her & hers; very rarely sets foot on solid land.all else is transient, save for the endless sky & the horizon that beckons them home. ( & if nothing we do matters, then all that matters is what we do. )

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ㅤnameㅤㅤ reu e'lias.
ㅤaliasㅤㅤ janus.
ㅤageㅤㅤ appears late twenties.
ㅤpronounsㅤㅤ he&him.
ㅤraceㅤㅤ rava; viera.
ㅤsexualityㅤㅤ pansexual.
ㅤoccupationㅤㅤ spymaster of ravensgate.

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LIKES
cherry pop & chocolate mousse; I CAN BE WHATEVER YOU WANT ME TO BE; a host of sparrows & an unkindness of ravens in flight; the slow methodology of spiders & web-weavers; stories, the more fantastical the better; lying so often that it becomes your nature; being caught in a lie

DISLIKES
having the sincere faith of a person; people believing your words without a single question asked; the ennui of a hot summer night; too much free time & not enough work; being forced to remember what once happened in the past; saviour-complexes that are forced into your life; bad lies & worse liars

codename reu knows next to nothing about who he is right now; he’s his mother’s son and his father’s bastard child and, to his chagrin, holds more of the winter of his father than the spring of his mother.he likes to put on the pretense of being helpless and safe, with wide silver-green eyes and a pretty, pretty smile, but the truth of the matter is that he could sell your soul to the highest bidder without batting an eye.a liar through and through, with an ( almost ) cruel chill 'neath the warmth that masks his gaze.

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ㅤnameㅤㅤ enkh buduga.
ㅤaliasㅤㅤ bishop.
ㅤageㅤㅤ 36.
ㅤpronounsㅤㅤ he&him.
ㅤraceㅤㅤ xaela; au'ra.
ㅤsexualityㅤㅤ pansexual.
ㅤoccupationㅤㅤ executioner of m4; mercenary.

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LIKES
drinking kugane’s strongest wine on the tallest peak in the city; the sick kinda’ power trip you get wrapping your hands around someone’s neck; the kinda’ lovesick you get when someone carves your body open on their knife; victory, even at the cost of everything else

DISLIKES
injustices done to his people; starvation like a disease; people breaking things that are his; hypocritical bastards & bad liars; the sun in his eyes—the way it brings him into a killing-stupor; being hungry (important things must be said at least twice)

you & the voidsent that wears your smile like a second skin have reached an understanding: monster-to-monster, ( breathe in & bite down on the heart that rests between your teeth, )& no longer the man who renamed himself jet— but also no longer that sun-stained xaela of the buduga tribe, you tear what remains of the soft heart in your core and remake yourself as BISHOP; a chess piece, both too-person to be a monster & too-monster to be a person.oh, YOU ARE FORGIVEN FOR THE CHOICES YOU HAVE MADE, and his honey-sweet voice is a devil’s temptation—there is nothing left in you to fight, BISHOP, so let this be your ruin.

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ㅤnameㅤㅤ ???.
ㅤaliasㅤㅤ saint.
ㅤageㅤㅤ unknown.
ㅤpronounsㅤㅤ they&she&he.
ㅤraceㅤㅤ veena; viera [allegedly].
ㅤsexualityㅤㅤ greysexual.
ㅤoccupationㅤㅤ priest; advisor to the kaimetsu-kai.

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LIKES
sunlight scattered through crystal windows; the brush of fingertips against cheek; affection, both the giving & the taking; spun-sugar stars that melt on their tongue; the consuming of secrets; the taking of red hands & redder thoughts.

DISLIKES
unknown. ( despair that rots on their tongue; feeling too much & the way that crashes over their head; the bittersweet of iridescent petals. )

currently the advisor to a certain yakuza heiress; there is something off about the way they look at you, all delicate affection and joy—as if this salvation they preach of is in the bloom of their smile.they talk about holiness and faith like the sun is caught in their laugh— like it's a drowning, and oh they're gonna' pull you right under,because these hands were made for praying, baby. count your blessings.

carrd

ㅤnameㅤㅤ えんまおう.
ㅤaliasㅤㅤ orias; director.
ㅤageㅤㅤ appears late twenties.
ㅤpronounsㅤㅤ she&her.
ㅤraceㅤㅤ raen; au'ra [allegedly].
ㅤsexualityㅤㅤ pansexual, but bored too easily.
ㅤoccupationㅤㅤ antibody's director of war; surgeon

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LIKES
pleasure, & the direct path to it; the warmth of bodies & the intimacy of the dead; the flicker of fear turned adoration; teeth at the nape of neck & hatred in eyes; expensive wine as a companion to good food; broken promises & good men

DISLIKES
the icy chill of the north, bitter and cold; those who yearn to be pitied; saviour-complexes and would-be heroes; bad manners & even worse taste; the clean-up after a mess

red-lipped & honey-voiced; her mouth is perpetually curved into a half-moon smile: canines are short but sharp, moon-crested in the lowlight. amusement makes itself home in the darling murmur of her laugh— yet her mask hides the upper part of her features, bone-solid and decorated with strange sigils.antibody's darling director of war: war as a hunger, war as inevitable, war as the thing that yearns.

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ㅤnameㅤㅤ からくれない.
ㅤaliasㅤㅤ shiki; nai-chan; nai; sakura.
ㅤageㅤㅤ appears early thirties.
ㅤpronounsㅤㅤ he&him.
ㅤraceㅤㅤ xaela; au'ra [allegedly].
ㅤsexualityㅤㅤ knifesexual.
ㅤoccupationㅤㅤ bodyguard of the kaimetsu-kai.

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LIKES
digging into open wounds & spreading salt into bloodied hands; bruises purpling across skin at his touch; expensive jars of sake & drunken nights ‘neath sakura trees; being called a monster & being treated like one; flowers, in general— sakura, most of all, transient things that they are

DISLIKES
being trapped into an obligation he disdains; those who think they deserve something from him; the sour-rot smell of corpses baking under the summer sun; blood, just before it dries: sticky and cold

oh, he craves violence like a bad addiction: loves the high of being broken, breaking, being put back together like a bad dream— loves both the cut and the kill, whichever one comes first.baby, he's a monster so fucking monstrous that he didn't even come with a name that fated day at the temple where he joined the benzene-ikka.karakurenai is less a name than it is a concept: crimson-red, wild-red, akane sasu (shining madder red),& his saint gave him that name for the way they found him at the boundary of the eintei, red smeared across his mouth, red dripping down claw-tips, red painted over the pure white of his silk montsuki like poppies in snow.

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ㅤnameㅤㅤ eistulfr rem albeo.
ㅤaliasㅤㅤ edel + edelweiss.
ㅤageㅤㅤ appears mid-twenties.
ㅤpronounsㅤㅤ he&him.
ㅤraceㅤㅤ veena; viera.
ㅤsexualityㅤㅤ pansexual.
ㅤoccupationㅤㅤ hunting hound of the kaimetsu-kai.

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LIKES
the euphoria of a good battle, with sweat-slicked hair and bright eyes; the lingering scent of a smokey fire; blades in hands and cutting away at venison; the setting sun over a different city every fortnight.

DISLIKES
a cold so fucking cold it feels like flame; being denied a good fight; weakness masquerading as softness; those who bow their heads to the ones in power and, yet, turn that same cruelty to their kin.

bright-sun laughter and feral, too-bright eyes. easy to excite and quick to wag his tail and offer wide-eyed wonder; likes people, for the most part, but it's a distant sort of appreciation that vanishes with the dawn.when he laughs, it's all full-throated with joy—like he'd broken his jaw tryna' swallow the sun, and the remnants of it still linger on his body. warm and friendly, all hands touching at stray hair and flicking at shoulders.passionate and too-honest, sometimes—likes laughing, likes ( the closeness of two hearts, the headiness of a battle high, the way hands sink deep into chest ) physical exertion and fetching things for other people.

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ㅤnameㅤㅤ valgarðr [valki] kir albeo.
ㅤaliasㅤㅤ lark + larkspur.
ㅤageㅤㅤ appears mid-twenties.
ㅤpronounsㅤㅤ he&him.
ㅤraceㅤㅤ veena; viera.
ㅤsexualityㅤㅤ pansexual.
ㅤoccupationㅤㅤ advisor of the dreadwyrm.

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LIKES
the sunlight that filters in through half-closed windows; sweetness that lingers on the tongue & teeth; the dream-like state of waking; early morning birdsong & the warmth of a pillow; curling into a nest of blankets on the tallest point of the ship

DISLIKES
morning dewdrops that dampen hair; raised voices & bluster; the act of waking up & the routine that follows after; inconvenience & inconvenient actions; strange complications & stranger foes

constantly sleep-ridden, with a liking for the simple & the familiar. he's got plenty of little habits: from the way he pillows his cheek against his palm, to the way his long ears twitch, to the way he always appears to be swallowing a yawn.warm & mellow, if only because he was raised to be affectionate.a gentle warmth that rasps in his slow murmur, a memory that latches onto the slightest things, if not onto people.prone to using endearments rather than names; all crooked half-smiles & fleeting glances.

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